Have you ever been tired- like, REALLY tired... like, you haven't slept very well in the past few days and you haven't felt good all day and you know you need to sleep but you just won't? You just don't want to slow down even though you know you're exhausted and you have things to do. And you keep getting the giggles for stupid reasons and then you start getting frustrated with yourself and then you're upset and you're not sure if you holding back laughter or tears.

...I think what I'm trying to say here is... I'm pregnant. No, actually, I'm just really tired and probably sick or something and I don't feel good and I don't want to lie down and go to sleep because my mind is still on full-blast and it's kinda whiling around more than usual and I don't really want to lay down in the dark and concentrate solely on my mind.

And every once and a while exhaustion hits me for all of 2 seconds but never stays long enough for me to actually want to sleep. I want to do something. I want to go to sleep. I want to read. I want to lay down. I want to play a game. I want to just fall asleep right here. I can't shut my brain off.

Y'know those commercials for Bing? Where everybody's listing off anything even remotely related to what the person is asking about.... and it's search overload or something? That's how my brain works. Give me a subject and I'll list off anything and everything I've ever heard, read, seen, thought, anything even remotely related to that subject and anything that it reminds me of. Is that normal? I'm not really sure. And, no, I'm not exaggerating... I really will just keep going. If I don't keep my mind in check, it tends to distract me with constant rambling about things even remotely related to what I'm doing.

Really. Is that normal? I have nothing to really gauge normal by... so... yeah. And I still can't go to sleep.